Every time I doubt the meaning of being alive

art is the hope to live on

where I could create a world

for the little girl to retain her childlike innocence

My tutor questioned me more than once
Why do you keep drawing a cartoon?

He told me the progress he has observed from my previous projects were
bigger scale, more layers, plentiful materials, more three-dimensional
But he could never understand
Why I keep drawing a cartoon

I took his suggestion seriously
and reviewed my previous artworks

I can’t escape life, so let’s enjoy the sunshine, Mixed media on Canvas,60cm X 90cm, 2018.8.15. London

I was excited about creating new artworks once
and they did bring me something

But the only work which touches my heart
that I wanna keep forever
the only work which I will draw if I die today
is the little girl happily living in the world I created for her

I have given up everything I ever owned, planned, expected
all for keeping this little girl with me

I don’t care if my paintings look professional or not
I don’t care if my artwork is high level or not
I don’t care about techniques, skill, materials at all

I’ve sought them, and luckily had got them before
but it’s never what I come for as an artist

I refuse to rebuild all the rules for my little girl

I don’t want to see the world I created for her
become the same as the real world in the end

I’d love to bear all the heaviness
in return for her lightness of being

Mowen 

London, UK
2018.9.29